Having good faith

Ramadan is almost ending and my heart can never be any sadder. Time and time again I would arrive at this point where I feel like I haven't done enough although I tried to do my very best. I didn't want to say I wasted my time but if I could just excuse myself this year around, I'd say my energy level deteriorated like crazy.

But I still find sweetness and beauty in a lot of things. I almost got some of my personal and spiritual goals ticked; thank you my Love for allowing it to happen in the first place. I wish Ramadan is longer but it's not fair to say such a thing because we can't be going back to what we used to be months before when Ramadan had already made us better version of ourselves. I think the struggle here will be to istiqomah moving forward.

InshaAllah, ameen.

I once read this quote about the hardest truth to digest during Ramadan is simply realizing that we are our own worst enemy. I have tried my very best to stay away from "emotions" or "traits" that I didn't like for the past few weeks and alhamdulillah it's such a relief to be able to do that but there were moments where I simply forgot to take a step back and remind myself of why am I even fasting in the first place. 

Allahumma innaka 'afuwwun tuhibbul 'afwa faa'fu anni.

I know I said it wasn't a fruitful month (to my definition, that is), I still find it to be the most memorable one yet. I have a few reasons for that, and some are too personal to be shared but I pray that each and everyone of you feel the same way about this Ramadan too.

One thing's for sure, I found solace in my love for The One. Learning and reading more about Him just cocoons my heart in such a safe embrace it's crazy how I can't really describe it. Having good faith in His plans used to be so hard for me but over the years I'm finding it easier to do so just as long as you trust Him with your life. He has been my Ultimate Best Friend the past few weeks and I just can't thank Him enough for everything that He placed in my life up till now.

I pray that I will always find this comforting thoughts to occupy my mind no matter how good or even bad things are in the future. Have good faith, inshaAllah all the good things will come your way.

Have a blessed remaining Ramadan, everyone. Much love!