A new dawn

You've read it everywhere-- I don't think you'd need another similar post reminding you about what just happened a few days ago. Malaysians did the unthinkable: we now have a new government. The news made headlines not just in the country but across the international waters too. It's crazy and overwhelming too but I am not going to go deep into it. I am just glad I had more than a week to take it all in. The emotions going around were too much but alhamdulillah we survived it all.

But there is just something that needs to be addressed. As much as how my heart has its own special place for some of the prominent figures we have today, I honestly couldn't find it in my heart to actually put politics over my family and friends. You know what I'm saying? The whole victory was bittersweet but what transpired among family members after the results came out broke my heart to pieces. Why and how did we allow such trivial matter as compared to family bonds be the reason we think it's okay to hurt our family members.

It's just so sad and disappointing.

I have my own reserved opinions too-- ones that definitely differ from my family and friends' but over time I have learnt to realize that there is no point fighting over it. I have stopped trying to argue with people with different opinions because guess what; to each their own. It might be hard to "agree to disagree" but if that is the only way for the arguments to be stopped, then why not? But of course some of us are just too proud to back down. It's hard to accept the fact that we could be wrong, even when we think we are right.

Enough about that. I really don't want to dwell on this because I know it might somehow get to me if I keep on thinking about it so let's just move on.

2 more days to our Holy Month, ma'shaa Allah. I cannot even explain the excitement and the nervousness that I have in my heart right now. I have been spending the past few days trying to prepare myself and my home to welcome Ramadan and to be honest, I am freaking out because I got so scared that I would somehow disappoint myself.

(insert endless istighfar here)

I feel like we are all just way too blessed. Like, do we even deserve Ramadan in the first place? After all the things we did not do for Him and yet He still grants us this beautiful month of redemption. Who are we to complain, really? I pray that everyone reading this will be able to make full use of the upcoming month - may we strive to be better and may Allah bestow upon us endless blessings in this month too.

I am not done yet, hehe. New goals have been written down this time around. Like what I did last year, most of the goals I have now are leaning towards the mental and spiritual part of me. I am trying my best to break myself out of my own mind-prison. I really need to learn to istiqomah harder. Amin amin.

OK lah, I think that is all. I just got back to the office after a long holiday so I still need to do some planning in terms of my workload but let's pray together that all of us will get to taste the sweetness of Ramadan once again and may we benefit from it too.

Write again soon, bye!