July intentions

Best month of the year is done, and half of the year is gone. So what do we do now?

I think this is the hardest part for most people. The istiqomah part is just a little too tricky sometimes that we need to put in extra effort to be conscious about it but if your niyyah is in the right place and for all the right reasons, inshaAllah there will be ease. But I just want to do some recap for Eid before I proceed with my July expectations or better yet in the most human term possible - intentions.

As much as I am sad to bid farewell to Ramadan because I feel like I didn't have ample time to do more, I am nevertheless still so thankful for all the things that I was able to do this Ramadan.  I used to chase after completing the Quran in the previous Ramadans but this year I have decided to take it slow and not make that as an end goal because I really wanted to understand the tafseer and the story behind every surah first. And the experience that came with it was (and still is) nothing short of beautiful.

Ramadan taught me to appreciate Eid more too. I always dreaded celebrating Eid especially after growing up and getting used to all these festivities' traditions and stuff but then again little did I know it is probably one of the very few times that I get to be with my whole family without any distractions from work or whatsoever. Of course I didn't get to celebrate Eid with my super Gramps this year but inshaAllah I'll be seeing him in July and for that, alhamdulillah.

More things need to be straightened out too. You see, one of the many reasons I don't write as much as I want to because I always have the chance to tell Sansan everything. I don't know how many times have I thanked Allah for enabling me with this but I am also stating this out because it's his birthday month and I really don't know what to get him. Ha ha ha I know this is me sidetracking but honestly, this is really bothering me. Should I just wrap myself up and put a ribbon on it? Tsk. Can you really spell vain without my name? I don't think so. Let's move on.

My ultimate goal for July is to read. Yes! There is clearly a connection with what I stated about my Quran reading and my July intentions. Yes! I need to read more. I have completely abandoned my love for books and language and everything that involves words but my Ramadan routine made me realise this again and for that again, thank you Allah. But I have promised myself (also to my husband, to my bank account and to my bookshelves) that I will start filtering the books I'm going to buy. No more buying because it's cheap, no more buying because the synopsis sounds promising. I have recently donated more than half of my books and there is still another full box that needs a new home and for this I am so disappointed with myself.

So here's the conclusion. YAY to reading more but NAY to buying books without thinking properly first. That sounds like a direct translation but you get me.

On a different note, I am actually glad to be back at work but then realized a different fact just 10 minutes after I stepped into my office: I should have taken the remaining two days of the week to spend time with my family. Yep, they are currently here in KL with me but everyone makes mistakes and this is one of mine.

Catch y'all laterz.