Dreaming away

I know I said I wanted to write more this month but I've been staying away from social media. I completely forgot how much I love finding solace in not knowing what's happening in other people's lives and it's really helping me focus on my own self-reflection.

I have come to realize many things in that process. Funny how with the absence of such distractions, I am able to actually compose myself in a more conscious manner and God knows how much I've been longing to do that. I have also let my withdrawals get the best of me this time around because it has in turn help me avoid talking too much to some people.

From there I have also managed to realize some of the bad habits I have. Some that was fruited from the negative vibes I got from people around me (I'm not blaming it on anyone, this is just the truth. I'll explain more later) and some - and also the worst part of my realization - came from my own being. Why I blamed other people for some of my bad habits? Because when I avoided/stopped talking to them, this so-called habit completely stopped too. Like I have never had any experience of having it in the first place. Hate to break it to you, one of main things is definitely gossiping! So therefore, if you're one of my friends and you feel like you have contributed to this, let's not do that anymore or else you'll end up on my blog just like this. May Allah have mercy.

Moving on. The part that saddens me the most, is of course the one that comes from myself. Like how I would always find time to dilly dally at my work - especially when it's one of those days where I just don't feel like it. And it's wrong because I am responsible for shaping my own state of mind, isn't it? And don't get me started on my patience. I have been having problems being patient with people, especially to people who invaded my personal space; people who offended my beliefs and especially when things don't go my way. Allahu, it's devastating to find out I put myself in this kind of state.

But of course it's a good thing too. To finally come to realization of all these. Isn't that how we are able to improve? I know this post sounds a little too serious. I'm been penning some serious stuff as of late because I have been in this solemn state too, because I've been thinking too much about death. Lol okay not trying to be all dark and stuff but I'll try to be more cheerful next time ok.

Wait till I write about the dreams I have been having this Ramadan. It's bothering me because as I grow up, I rarely dream. And when I dream, I never really forget them. During this holy month, I have been having a constant ones and also nothing short of weird as well so I really wanna write on that soon, in case some dream specialist stumbled upon my blog and tell me what's up! I'm kidding, really but I'll write about it soon ok.

Byebye.