I can't write anymore?

Alhamdulillah that we get to greet Ramadan again this year. I love it so much, too much that I prayed to Allah to let me be able to fast for the first few days just because I want to be able to greet Ramadan with doing the first Taraweeh and a Quran recital. I prayed that my period cycle is wrong this time around (TMI, I know) and of course, He is indeed the All-Hearing and the All-Knowing and He granted me just that.

The first two days of Ramadan has been blessed. And I really hope it's going to continue just like this even until the very last day of Ramadan, inshaAllah. Some things are different because I don't live alone anymore, it still feels awkward to recite Quran and also have your deep conversation with Allah when you know at any time your husband can just enter the room. I know I shouldn't feel this way but I'm still in the midst of adjusting.

But I'm not here to really talk about this lovely, lovely month. I was actually trying to finish up my cover story for the next issue. I had bad experiences with cover stories so I've been trying to avoid them at all cost. It's quite weird to say because I enjoy writing but it gets really hard for me to adorn sentences and thoughts based on hard facts that I can't seem to express as my own. I'm still trying in this area but at the same time I have this feeling of not being able to do it despite how many times I try.

Yes, I took a break from writing that just to write this because although some people say writer's block is a myth, I believe I am currently experiencing one right now and I am indeed suffocating.

My initial reaction was to cry over it but how can I do that when I'm not even done with it? So I guess I'll just save the crying later. I just want to remind myself here that I've promised to try hard and this is me trying hard to actually like it. If you're my Managing Editor, yes the struggle is real and I wasn't faking it. Hello! Hehe.

But at the same time I just want to believe. That I'll pull through this one, inshaAllah. I just need to breathe once in awhile because sometimes I really feel like I'm running out of air. Wow, being positive is pretty draining sometimes when you're standing on the opposite sphere altogether. Here hoping that I'll come back with a more positive vibe next time. Happy fasting, everyone!