#ASalways

So I've been away for a few months now, and that's the longest I've been in abandoning this precious space of mine. I swear I have my good reasons. But one of the main reasons is uhm well, I got married in March. 

Yes, I know. It's May now, what took me so long to actually write that down? Well, I have been busy and this is honestly not an excuse. The first reception was in March, which was held in Miri and we had our second reception in Kuching just recently. Oh my stars, did I mention we? Hah, yes I did.

I've been wanting to introduce Sansan to my blog. I have been talking about him but I never went deep into it because I was actually waiting for him to be legally mine first (well, not that I had foreseen this lovely fact but let's just say I didn't want to jinx anything yet) so I have refrained from talking about him in details. Despite being in a relationship with him for almost 3 years, and despite being friends with him for almost 10 years now. But let's just go back to the weddings, first.

The preparations leading up to the day was actually pretty manageable, if I were to be honest. We got engaged in a private ceremony in December 2016 and it was only after the engagement that we started doing the real planning. It was fun because Sansan was a major part in helping me settle things between vendors and also families. Despite telling every little soul I have known for the past 20 years of my life that I would never, ever, get married, God opened up my heart to this one, alhamdulillah. How hypocritical this incoming statement is; now I can't really imagine not sharing my life with this ball of sunshine I get to call mine.

I loved everything about our solemnization and receptions, especially the one on my side because I get to be who I really am - and that is... *drumrolls* by wearing a black dress during the reception itself. I've been really worried that I would have to succumb to the traditional white dress thing but thank God my family and Sansan's family respected my preference and for that I am extremely thankful. The details of the wedding were all so perfect too. Right from our ring choice, to the songs, to our videos and to the whole theme itself. My ring is perfect! I thank God that the initial plan didn't work out, where I'd just buy one from the local providers and be done with it but Sansan is super amazing, told me to think carefully about this because he understands my need to have everything embedded with its own meaning.

Hence the black diamond. Although it took almost a month to reach us (should pay a visit to Australia soon) but I'm happy nonetheless. Why black ring? Why raw diamond, even? I'll keep that between Sansan and I for now.

And that was my perfect wedding's tale. But please bear with me, I'd like to pay a tribute to my knight in shining armour, just a little. I think he deserves it, especially after I've been keeping him in the dark (from the blog) for so long.

Sansan was a friend of mine. I have decided to just address him as Sansan because it was a nickname that I gave him last time and simply because he's still my one and only sunshine. Sansan, sunshine, get it? Lol. 

Our friendship means so much to me because I had seen it bloom from just an annoyed look (from me, obviously) to a friend request on social media, to so many hellos, to hangouts, to so many late night talks, to I love yous and to this. We have basically seen each other grow up and that's the most precious thing to me. Just want to be honest here, I didn't like him at all when I first saw him - the only reason I decided to be nice to him is because my bestfriend is his 'kakak angkat'. Ha so yes guys, it's true, don't hate people ok or else you'd end up marrying them. 

The more I know him, the more I realize that he reminds me of someone I terribly look up to and wholeheartedly love. Which is of course, my Dad. This has got to be one of the reasons as to why I could finally see my future with someone. And alhamdulillah, I'm glad my heart has been dead for so long and it finally decided to welcome a permanent resident into it when it first caught its eyes on Sansan and his being. I can never thank the One and Only enough for lending me this sweetheart but inshaAllah, I pray that I get to keep him for as long as possible.

So yes, that's it. Ha ha, I haven't changed guys. I'm still the same person who would promise to tell you a long story but ended up telling you just that. Because I'm tired of typing now but I promise (I swear, this promise is legitimate) that I'll update more soon. I'm trying to steer the blog into a new direction now. Hence, the new look! Not much of a new look but there is something different, at least. Will talk more about that soon.

Before I end this post, I just want to ask for everyone's kindness in praying for my marriage's smooth sailing and may it forever be under Allah's guidance and blessings. Thank you for reading. I'll see you soon!