Happy new year!
Can't believe it's already 2017. I swear to God it felt like it was only yesterday that I prayed 2016 to be over as quick as possible and here we are. Been a long, crazy year but I'm thankful nonetheless.
To be honest, I have lots and lots of mix! Just kidding, I mean I have a lot of things to share with everyone but at the same time, I don't feel like sharing it just yet because everything is too personal as of now. I just love how content I feel these days despite the actual stress trying to take over my head but of course God is the most Merciful so alhamdulillah for everything.
My battles with my inner demons have been less frequent now but when it strikes, I still feel capable of countering the bad vibes - not because I'm mentally stronger now but it's simply because I have someone who has been helping me get through it and trust me, I really want to write so many things about this someone but let's just hope for the right moment okay and yes no worries, it's still the same Sunshine, guys.
My fickle heart is forever in check, of course but I'm so glad both my brain and my heart are good friends now as compared to before and I really hope this could be a good sign.
One thing that I can't seem to get rid of just yet is my strong inclination of caring about how some people think and thus making me to consider their choices in my life (yes, you read that right - MY life) just so that I wouldn't hurt anyone. My heart is always racing when I think about the possibility of me just being as frank as possible but at the same time we all know it's a constant fight in this place called my mind.
When I say I have lots of things to share, I really mean lotsssssss of things and I really don't know where to start. I have this strong urge to stop blogging altogether not because it's taking over my head but simply because I feel like I need to just let this one go. I don't know if starting anew could be a good thing but I don't think I needed that. What I really need for now is the filtering part.
I also feel like I'm sugarcoating way too much in this post and to be honest, I really am because there are these conflicting emotions I'm experiencing in welcoming this new year and I don't know if I should really make up my mind. But what I really want to do now is keep my health in check and stop feeling like it's the end of the world although it really is.
Whatever your new year's resolutions are, good luck with them! Till we meet again.
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