The idealist.

Left for an adventure and I came back more sane than ever. Well, I wish I could really start off my thoughts on that note and actually mean it? Oh hi, it has been a crazy while. I'm done with the year - if you look at it work-wise because everything is done and dusted. I've been praying for this day to come and it felt like ages, and it felt like I've been holding my breath ever since. But now that it's all over, I can actually hear a sigh of relief although it isn't too loud.

I've been having a huge dilemma for the past few weeks and I've put it aside; with the excuse that I need to get it over with my workload first - only then I could actually think about this particular dilemma. And boy was I wrong. I'm still trying to avoid to think but God knows I had nowhere to run.

Exciting things are coming but the scary part is, these exciting things could actually be a nightmare in the making. Of course I overthink things, of course I overanalyze things but hey, better be safe than sorry.

I'm actually more at peace now that I share less with people - about my future plans. I get bad vibes from it too but I kept reminding myself to put myself first. I mean it's easier for people to say whatever they want - just because they think they know you enough but here I am laughing at this little fact that, nope you don't know me as much as you think you do. I'm really enjoying this little space that I've created and I can foresee my wrath if someone were to ruin the whole ecosystem in it.

Maintaining motivation is rocket science to me, especially when getting it is also a first world's problem to this favourite (or not) girl of yours. I kept making lists that I would definitely end up losing. And I hate this part about myself the most! I would have inserted more exclamation marks but that would definitely clash with my aesthetic so whatever.

It's already October and more things are happening soon and I'm already fuh ree kiiiing OUT. Bye.