A much anticipated apology.

♫ Låpsley — "Falling Short"

It took me 4 days to reciprocate this one anticipated apology by a particular someone. Dear you, if you're reading this - please bear in mind that I'm not here to public-shame you. I'm writing this in a general form, alright?

It's anticipated because it's nothing new to me. I'm not sure if my bitchy persona led people to think that I am capable of destroying someone else's life and relationship but so far, that's what I've been getting. I always get caught up in unwanted drama like this. Unwanted because the accusations always turn out wrong at the end of the whole feud and also because I know it can all be avoided if some people would just have the guts to confront me and ask me personally instead of assuming things behind my back and bashing me without even saying it directly to me.

I freaking despise public-shaming. God gave us a mouth to freaking ask and talk. Why opt for something so low such as attacking without even knowing the real truth?

These dramas always end up with me having to forgive them for "attacking without thinking" and it always ends up with me having to be the bigger person so I shouldn't bring up the fact that they attacked me first for false accusations. But in times I get used to it and it's really nothing new to me any more but I have a few things to say. I'm not trying to sound like I really didn't want to forgive them but what I'm trying to say is that all these drama and misunderstanding could have been avoided if they would just talk to me. Call me. Text me. Ask me. Meet me. All that shit. I will bloody tell you the truth because what's the point of prolonging things that don't contribute to our happiness? Might as well just get everything over with a simple truth, no?

But maybe sometimes we shouldn't overestimate people's common sense when it comes to the matters of the heart. I get it, some people react based on their feelings and emotions but honestly, is it fair? Why must we cause all the damages before realizing there's a better way to fix this? Is it because you're afraid that you might end up realizing it's your own mistake? What is so disgusting about owning up to your own actions and mistakes? Isn't that how we would be able to learn?

I don't know. Maybe some people just need to grow up a little.