Lesson learnt.

♫ The Blue Van — "Silly Boy"

I couldn't stop listening to this song since I heard them while watching The First Time. The movie was kinda crappy and somehow gave out insignificant values but their soundtracks were all worthy of second, third and forth chances. I have also been listening to a band called Slow Hollows, whose album Atelophobia came out last June. I'm not going to comment on their songs but I have actually learned that atelophobia is the fear of not being good enough and I was like whoa, pretty sure everyone suffers from that though.

Except for Jose Mourinho, of course.

And I'm not saying that in a demeaning manner. I've been spending the last two days reading about him and watching his interviews because I needed to come up with my own interview questions for him of which would be featured in our next magazine issue. I dreaded the assignment because a) I don't like him and I don't even like the team he's currently managing except for Shurrle and Terry but Shurrle is no longer attached to them and Terry will soon need to bid them farewell and b) I don't want to end up liking him. Oh yes, you got it right - the latter happened.

That's the problem with us, isn't it? We are so used to shape our feelings and judgments towards someone based on the stories that we heard and also other several external factors that somehow influence you in having such thoughts about this said person. I plead guilty to this social crime. It is really never that person's own doing to us that made us look at them in a bad light but it's what they did or said to others that led us to not favour them. This mentality, my friends, is super toxic and it has the power to jeopardize any potential friendships, relationships and all kinds of ship that you can think of.

I learnt a lot about Mourinho in the past two days and I found that most of his qualities are actually exceptional and it would overpower anyone who is easily slighted by such so-called unpleasant demeanour. But he is just doing him and although I hate to admit it, it brought him to where he is today.

My favourite thing about Mourinho (lol should I regard myself as one of the Blues now eh of course not okay team City all the way) is that he stands up for himself and he tolerates no bullshit. He speaks his mind whenever he thinks he should and he lets nothing gets in his way. He doesn't care about what people think of him and he knows what he's good at. He knows he's good enough. My, who was I kidding - he knows he's great enough for the world to see.

I now understand why he attracts such bad comments from people because no shit, people hate genuine things and nowadays, it's easy to be blinded by all the sugar-coated truths. That is how we end up hating people we don't even know. It wouldn't be nice if people were to look at us that way too, isn't it?

I hate to admit it but it's freaking true when they say; don't judge a book by it's cover, you might miss out on a good story. So yes, I'm going to welcome new friendships with an open heart from now on lol okay but let's do it slowly but surely.

*Mourinho's spirit exiting my body*