It's already a quarter century.

♫ Lorde — "Yellow Flicker Beat"

Wow, turning 25 never felt so ordinary.

To be honest, it's not a big deal because age is just a number and I already feel like I've gone through 100 lives before. But it's the people, isn't it? They can't help but make you feel extra special on your birthday and I'm so thankful for the ones I've kept close to my heart. I have a bunch of amazing souls who showered me with long-ass text messages expressing their love for me and I couldn't ask for a better gift. Thanks for everything people, you guys know who you are.

Alhamdulillah, it has been a crazy life. I'm not saying that it's going to be a smooth ride from now on but I'm learning and still will be. It's amazing, to have all these chances to still wonder if I deserve another year despite everything. God is the Most Merciful, and the world is such a beautiful place.

I think I'm going to cry now.
Or maybe not.

All the past years, I've conformed to the idea of being an inconvenient woman; someone who needs a constant emotional and mental checkup but then I'm just over it, you know? I don't want to feel inferior around myself any more. It has taken a lot of my potentially good years and I'm not going to end my life that way too. I have taken for granted the fact that I have such a strong support system behind me. God bless each and every one of you mega-awesome people. Oh just to justify my song choice, it's actually my life anthem for now.

Happy 25th birthday, Ain.