Something like berries.

My pet kitty sister graduated last Saturday and it was actually one of the best moments in my life. I know, I experienced mine 5 years ago but witnessing someone you really care reach that point in life is quite satisfying nonetheless. Especially when she took the road less taken despite being put down by the naysayers around her. I'm proud of her because she chose what she love rather than what she was expected to do. This gal got big brains ok and I'm so glad she didn't conform to those expectations.

I could write more on that but I'm afraid I might get a little too emotional. I guess it's hard, being the eldest amongst the siblings. I constantly feel like these are my children, and not my brothers and sisters but at the same time I don't want to impose so much rules on them, you know?

Like, you want them to learn this thing called life on their own but at the same time you don't want them to end up doing the mistakes that you did in the past. You want to guide them step by step but at the same time you know it's not fair. I'm always trying to fight that urge to control their lives not because I have nothing better to do, but simply because I really don't want them to take the wrong path. It's scary because experiencing everything else firsthand; you wouldn't want your siblings to have to go through all the bad things you had gone through but the instinct is there, I can't really get rid of it. But controlling them too much would just lead them to think that they don't have any say in the decisions that they are making and now you're stuck between being the responsible big sister or the understanding big sister because trust me my friends; those two can't really coexist at the same okay it's hard I tried. Kudos to those who managed.

I'm sorry if this feels like ranting because I don't really have any specific subject to discuss on so yeah thank you for bearing with me. 

So many things will be happening by the end of the year and early next year and I'm still standing on this thin line between wanting to realize it's happening, and wanting to believe this is all just a stupid dream that I need to wake up from soon. But nevertheless, I'm forever thankful ya Allah for all these blessings because I clearly don't deserve any of this but alhamdulillah I wouldn't want any more or less. 

It's August and I'm turning 26 soon. Such a small number for an old soul like me. I honestly feel like I should be 40 this year but it's pretty cool and annoying at the same time when people told me I'm still too young for something lol ok I'm going to write more on that soon okay. 

Hope everyone had a lovely weekend just like I did. Bye!