Shattered.

I was walking towards my car this morning when my friend texted me the news. Never have I felt so devastated over a love affair before. This is the first, and this is the worst.

I mean come on, you would want someone you love to be with someone as great as he is, right? That's what I believe in and I'm always waiting for him to find the right person although the fact that he prefers being single is so much better, of course. But then this happened. Out of all the people in the world, he chose to give his perfect self to this lady I don't really fancy - oh cut it, I have legitimate reasons as to why she's not my cup of tea. 

I have never felt so heartbroken before because I can tolerate her being with anyone in the world but Tom Hiddleston is off limits a.k.a banned a.k.a out of her boundaries a.k.a MINE. I wish I was kidding when I said I was super sad and furious this morning. I'm not going to explain why I don't like her because I don't want to be so toxic like her; claiming herself to be feminist and shit but at the same time try to bring down women that don't please her. Oh hey, that's actually one of the reasons I don't like her fake ass.

OK I shouldn't be angry but I think I have the right to. Right now I'm just going to avoid the stupid news outlet like how I always have and not get updated with such stupid news. As for Hiddleston, I shall stop loving you for awhile now. She's going to break your heart and I will kill her for that if I could but at the same time I am praying it to happen as soon as possible because your beautiful soul deserves someone better. Till then, I shall not forgive you and I shall try to learn to love you back once this stupid commotion is over. Enough about this.

Oh hello! It has been awhile since I last updated and had the time to actually rant. I have been super packed with everything that's going on in my life. The last 7 days were spent going back and forth between my old and new house and yes, this girl right here has a new place she can finally call home! The moving and cleaning processes were so tiring, especially when it is done during this month and we always end up having no more than 3 hours of sleep per day. Everything is almost done now although I still have a few other stuff to settle for the old house but we'll see.

I kind of regretted moving during this time of the year because honestly, it had really distracted me from fully embracing my Ramadan especially during the nights. My taraweeh is not consistent and it's really sad. This is why I can't wait for this whole thing to be over this week yay!

I'm trying to finish all my work before my long Eid holidays and I'm actually relieved to know that I've been worrying shitless for all the stupid things all this while. Let's write more soon okay, I have a matter that I would love to share here.

Till then, take care.