Taking a breather.

Right now is definitely not the best time to write here, especially when it's one of the busiest times of the year but I just couldn't take it; woke up this morning with a migraine despite having ample sleep and enough food. By then I knew I had been staring at my excel sheet for way too long.

The endless updates on the guest list, the incoming calls and my nerves of checking my pending assignments for the magazine because everyone is busy with the upcoming event and no one really bothered checking up on their magazine's assignments just yet because priority, duh. But of course I just had to add on to my own stress. But it's all okay now.

A lot had happened in the past few days though, some things were bad and some were good too. Someone I knew passed away few days ago. I wanted to call her my friend, but I'm not sure if I deserve that title. Knew her when she was only 14, simply because she dated a friend of mine. Then she sort of just stuck around in my circle of friends so I basically watched her grow up. But last year, I had a direct contact with her - she was doing my makeup for Boo's wedding. My first ever makeup, I have to say and she didn't disappoint. We started becoming "virtual" friends after that, we followed each other on social media and stuff. And what made her passing hard to swallow for someone who's not really her "friend", is the last few snapchats that we exchanged privately. Her goodnights and wishes though, of which I personally replied to. It's things like this that made it all quite unbelievable despite the brief friendship we shared.

I was in the middle of buying my groceries with Sansan when I was delivered the news. My knees wobbled and the news shook me that I had to stand in the corner just to calm myself down. I couldn't imagine the feeling of people who were actually very close to her. I can't even imagine losing someone so dear to me like that too. Please oh God, let me see my loved ones a little more longer, ok? I know I've told You this countless times but I just had to put it here too.

I had a weekend getaway in Ipoh last weekend just because I needed to take a chill pill before the hectic week (I'm talking about this week, if you couldn't tell. Yes I'm already going crazy, as predicted). It was nice to be in a foreign town for a while though. But of course I miss my house here even worse after that.

My work table is a mess now, my mood board is cramped with outdated things. Don't get me started on my laptop's home because it's really starting to piss me off too now. Can't wait for Friday to come so we can all breathe easy again even just for a few days before we start worrying about closing the magazine.

This is why I have a love-hate relationship with my job but no worries, it's mostly the former. Let's all pray for my survival ok.