Spring came early.

♫ Say Anything — "Do Better"

The past few days made me feel like I was cocooned in a bubble of wonderful and lovely feelings. How did I manage to pull it together within me, it's kind of surprising to me as well. I wasn't able to breathe out the entirety of the built-up anger but I was able to let it slowly subside even when it wasn't that much. I needed more time, it seems but hey, practice makes perfect. I didn't expect things to get easier from time to time but one thing's for sure, it felt more normal nowadays.

I have been reading too much things on the internet as of late, too. I know I said I didn't want to read about matters that aren't relevant to my life but this one, I couldn't just dismiss it. Probably because it made me wonder how could someone so amazingly sweet turn into a bloody tanggang? All right, too much information there. Let's not go there, shall we? This is not Siakap Keli for god's sake lol, moving on.

I got sick last week after almost half a year of wondering how did I manage to stay healthy despite my lack of attention to my own health? Well, I got what I asked for and it was the longest three days of my life because I basically just stayed in bed, rotting. Learnt my lesson, no more bad habits and more good food. I shall not define the good food part because 10 bowls of boat noodle pretty much means the same thing to me.

Truthfully, my week started off badly. Especially when you decided to stay up late on a Sunday night just to watch your football team get pawned over like a bunch of little schoolkids (exaggerating, but you understand my frustration). And then I got crazy tummy cramps because I still couldn't detach myself from the love that I have for teh tarik. You see, I always try to fix my early morning or late night cravings with teh tarik but I always ended up regretting it. Despite being told countless times by Sansan regarding my definite incoming tummy ache if I were still to drink it. I ask for teh tarik all the time and he warns me all the time about it too. Poor thing. But it's all good now because I'm just going to stay away from it for awhile. Good luck doing that, ha ha.

I let out too much sighs nowadays too, to be honest. Not in a whiny kind of way but more like to expanding my heart's capacity kind of way; whenever I'm in this phase. Yes, this phase that I try so hard to be okay with. One more sigh there. I need my flowers to stay alive longer this time around. I'm aware of the season changing but I need these flowers to stay just a little longer this time. Don't want to fall back into them bad habits, you know? For the temporary relief so yeah, writing might just help for now. Bipolar is no fun! Insert endless cringing here.

I'm so happy to have you people read my thoughts like this and not ask me openly about it. Thank you so much. I bestow upon you endless happy thoughts for next 30 days, okay!