Planting flowers.

♫ Chance, the Rapper — "Sunday Candy"

I've been listening to this song since morning and it made me want to write something here, so hello! The second week of January has been so far so good. Too fast, undeniably, but still — pretty much on track. I've been sticking to some of my schedules too: my drink-more-water schedule and my more-journal-writing schedule. I know it's just how our mentality works but still, things feel better. That's my inner Aino speaking, if you were wondering.

New year means new responsibilities! I don't really agree on that but let's look at it literally, especially when it comes to my job scope. It has been a crazy past year but 2016 will see me exploring new areas and truthfully, I'm kinda excited about it. I know with my fickle state of mind, I could just regret being too excited about it but hey, it's all about happy thoughts this year, isn't it?

SPREAD HAPPY VIBES, PEOPLE!

Speaking of that, it has been a lovely battle with the inner demons. Alhamdulillah, they are more under control now. I know I did give in to them some nights, leading me to my unbearable silence and withdrawal moments but I have learned to be friends with them lately. To ignore them completely is absolutely the wrong thing to do because it would be similar to bottling them up - giving them the opportunity to cause even worse damage in the near future. So yes, I've been trying to get along with them now. I stand by my belief of not relying on a therapist to tell me how to govern my imbalanced brain chemicals. I have finally realized God made me this way for a reason and of course, he wouldn't burden me with things I couldn't bear. Praise to the ar-Rahim for all the things I still get; although clearly undeserving of.

Other than that, it feels good to not know about the bad deeds going on in people's lives. There are so many things to learn about and yet some of us chose to fill our minds and hearts with things that don't matter: keeping ourselves updated with other people's misfortunes and also reading about stuffs that don't benefit us in any ways. I did a social media cleansing a few weeks ago (I know, I did it many times before but I was never firm before) (lol, be supportive, I'm trying) and I never felt better about the things that I come to know about. It feels good to not know about some things. Choosing to be aware of a very selected things makes me feel so much more in control of what I equip myself with. May this be a constant reminder to myself.

I'm thinking of starting to post photos to the blog though but still in the contemplation phase. If my next post might include photos, you should understand it's not going to be an occasionally thing anymore. So hey, have a blessed day everyone!