Monday, January 7, 2019

Hello 2019

I have been meaning to write a welcoming post on January 1st but then since I didn't really celebrate the change of date, I don't see the point of doing so. But I still love making new resolutions. It helps me to keep track of my mental stability and such.

My one and only resolution for the year is to stop being stuck.

I experience this state in so many areas of my life although not simultaneously but it's still crippling nonetheless. What I meant by stuck is pretty much subjective but let me just share a few points here--it's also easier for me to refer back to it should I go astray.

I want to stop being stuck with all my unread books, unwanted clothes, unfinished projects and unnecessary thoughts. The last one can be tricky but you get the idea, yeah?

I have vowed to not buy any new books until I have finished reading all the ones that I have abandoned on my shelves. I have vowed to not buy new clothes until I have gotten rid of all the clothes that I would never ever wear anymore. I have vowed to bury all the projects that I can no longer see myself pursuing. And most importantly I have vowed to get rid of unnecessary thoughts that have plaguing my head since forever. This includes how sometimes I can be so unhappy with my career, how sometimes I just don't want to keep certain friends anymore, and how sometimes I wanna stop being so hypocritical towards things/people that don't serve me any purpose in life anymore.

I feel so stuck right now just thinking (I mean, writing) about this.

I feel like I can truly do this. I just need to stop wanting to be stuck, stop allowing myself to be stuck, and just stop being stuck in anything at all. Like a dear beautiful being once said to me, "you're just one decision away from a different life" and I couldn't agree more.

Let's do this, my fwens. Bi-smillāhi r-raḥmāni r-raḥīm.

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