Things have been in a pandemonium lately or maybe I am just exaggerating. I don't know what is the exact word for whatever had happened these past few days but it was somehow pleasant, but in a chaotic way. Does it make sense to you? Shouldn't there be an app that could just give us the exact word of what we are feeling at that particular time? I need this app to exist pronto.
Most conversations that happened these past few weeks were about directions and new responsibilities. If you know me so well, you would know it is something I don't find pleasure dwelling on despite the fact it is something I must figure out, eventually. These talks of directions have been trying to catch me off guard whether or not I am allowing it to have such effect on me.
I honestly think I'm secretly 50 years old. I don't find pleasure in trying new things anymore, the only ones I enjoy talking to lately are just God and Sansan, I don't find supposedly-exciting things to be exciting anymore. People told me because I've grown up, I've matured but I just feel like these are the symptoms of me going to meet my Maker soon. I don't mean to sound all morbid and stuff but I feel like this world is so exhausting, I just want to be somewhere else.
This is pretty contradicting - especially with my working background. I need to be updated all the time, I need to be able to socialize and get contacts, I need to be able to just talk. Despite knowing that, I still love my job. I still love everything that I have been given (and don't deserve too) but I can't help but admit the fact that I'm getting so tired of this world.
How's that for the new direction of this blog? Ha.
I will be having a short holiday next week and the only reason why I'm looking forward to it is that my parents will be tagging along with us this time around and we're going somewhere where no one knows us (I think lah)! That feeling of being amongst strangers, nothing can beat that right? I think I'm actually experiencing the NZ's hangover. Now that took me awhile. Please blame Sunshine for always bringing that up lately.
On a totally different note, I am very defensive about my ownership on books. In this current digital era, I would never be that someone who would be carrying a Kindle with them (hi Ida, don't roll your eyes at me right now) nor would I be that someone who would actually have an appropriate span of attention to even concentrate on listening to audiobooks because I need to see a tangible thing presenting it ok and not just voices. BUT, uh I hate to admit this but yesterday I gave an audiobook a try (just an excerpt of it) and it got me smiling the whole day. Alright, I'm not going to lie. It's not because I finally realized how amazing listening to audiobook is but simply because.... it was Tom Hanks reading it to me.
Don't get me started on just how much I love this fellow over here.
It was a great new experience but I still stand strong with my squad of tangible books' lovers out there. I need to feel it, I need to touch it and I need to own it. Just this month alone I had purchased 3 books and I can't wait to share my review hehe. I know I should be greener and love mother earth but I feel like books should be the only exception, ok? It's ok if you don't agree; to each their own, people!
Oklah. Write again soon.
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