Standing with an army.

♫ Ellie Goulding — "Army"

You knew this is going to be about you the moment you saw the song I inserted, don't you? I guess I can't really run away from it anymore, despite how many times I've tried avoiding a one-to-one moment with you during your reception. Yes sugar pops, I wasn't that strong ok.

I'm so glad that it all went well, I'm sorry I didn't say much during the speech because I really couldn't bring myself to pour my heart out there so since this is my favourite outlet out of all, I'll just continue it here. Brace yourself for all the throwbacks that I might include in this post.

We officially became wifeys when I was only 14 despite knowing you three years before. It was funny but it is something that I would never regret happening. Our nicknames for each other, and our never-ending letters oh good lord, I can't even imagine those days without your letters. Despite being in different classes, it didn't stop our friendship to develop. I loved you too much before, and I still do love you just as much today. Probably more, what can I say haha I'm that possesive. And geez, remember our book? That big white notebook? I seriously need to rummage through my old belongings just to take a look at it again (and ruin myself at the same time because oh my god it has been 13 years bruhhh)

It's amazing to look back and realize how we have grown so much in so many kind of aspects and yet one thing remains the same - our strong friendship. We did fight a few times but it always ended up with us expressing our unconditional love towards each other. I wish I had spent the last two years of high school without you being in a different city but I'm glad it happened that way because I'm sure that was why our friendship grow even stronger each year.

I love the fact that you know almost everything about me and despite my heartless nature, you still think of me as someone special. I know that because you never fail to express your love my way and I'm glad I could do the same to you.

Thank you for always having faith in me, thank you for being there for me especially when my darkest days arrive without any invitation. Thank you for making me feel adequate despite my bipolar, thank you for all the attention and concern you gave to me without asking for anything in return. Thank you for being a mommy to me, thank you for not letting our differences come between our already so special friendship. And of course, thank you for making me one of your bridesmaids although I know we both wish that term doesn't exist, at all.

So glad we finally changed our theme song (Aguilera's I Turn To You) to this song right here. I mean every word Ellie said, and of course you know that already. I know nothing has changed and will not change even after your wedding day but I still feel sad nonetheless because honestly I feel like a part of me is being given to someone else. But worry not, I'm sure Amstutz will take care of you even better than I did lol ok let's not argue on that.

I love you ad infinitum, my Piglet! Don't forget to name one of your daughters with my name ok lol but no I'm serious ok thanks. Till death do us part, fo shizzle ma nizzle.